Looking Within

Looking Within

Early morning’s seer has sat to do something

But is perplexed what to brood and how to proceed.

He wants to write but good subject is not striking,

Goes to some events, and is unable to decide.

Fears that will be unable to construct the required,

And gets satisfied with the available small.

Though noble minded but novice, experimented not much

Just remains silent and amazed by others’ great works.

Has not agitated self much and is little inspired to try,  

So has remained unrevealed and half-opened.

When life is so precious, able to bring out the best

Why this immortal soul is unable to realize self?

Enough paper is available with pen to support,

Only the best should come out to speak of its own.

Exploration of self and its analysis properly

Smiling at self and purifying its every bit.

Making secret of atomic energy quite known to self 

And facilitating every bit to contribute the best.

All internalizations and workings of the mind,

will prepare seer for the great tasks to soon take.

Much more is expected beyond mediocre present,  

Which is just waiting when you will proceed.  

Seer observes mainly the self,

And inner world is his study book.

Doing research with near available material,

And same is out of sight for most mortals.

Seer is aloof so far except some tidings at intervals,  

And just in wait for correct time & mind’s suitability.

Raking so far is only little of vast uncultivated fields,

There is lot to do and the best cultivation is possible.

Nature is abundant so much around

but mind is petty & so its ill working.

Does not recognize worth and roams into insignificant,

and does not expand to the glories of cosmos.

Seer wanders, perplexed like Upanishad’s pupil

No teacher is in sight, and claimants seem tricksters.

Good reads are only solace than the physical teachers,  

And they compensate a little for self’s revelation.

Quite novice, unprepared, unquestioning and unaware

Looking ignorant to happenings all-around.

Not a keen observer even in good riches,

And is poor in spite of treasure everywhere.

Seer is bit aware of his inner turbulences

But does not know exactly & why happening.

No cure seems possible as surrounded are alike only

But still has deep desire to know what it is & why.

Seer often aspires to broaden the self

But fears of likely toil & time required.

This is his ill knowledge as everything is present

All resources are around, only industry is required.

He ponders at times of his present gloomy condition,

And clearly finds reasons hindering growth possible.

Lethargy, late waking, mental dullness and less enthusiasm

So are uncurious mind, procrastination and other evils many.  

He aspires to remove enemies & pursue noble virtues,

And goads self towards inner heaven’s gate.

That kingly empire is waiting impatiently

But worthy only will grace the throne.

Seer fears for not brooding such so far

That riches are possible, but what to do for them.

Can such arrangements be parts of his life,

And whether will he realize them?

Though seer is he but not much intelligent

Troubled inside but unable to cognize cause.

Thinks a little bit and that too is superficial, 

And not having tools to enable coming out.

What & how to leave to avail space for better

What to uncover to medicate the ills.

What habits to form to live a meaningful life

What paths to follow for adventure & sagacity?

Enhance life’s experiences to know all facets

Cannot afford condition where there is no change.

Light is everywhere but reflection is required,

And surface to strike to warrant self’s revealing.

Many infatuations and few paths & preventives

The former are stronger & not letting the move.

Hold fast not allowing freedom from clutches

And connive full in their evil designs.

But liveliness & prudence all vie to come out,

And have judged all such capriciousness & bondages.

Thinking all ways to attain the liberty,

And persuading self to attain the manhood. 

Stand erect and do not stoop or crouch

Speak out mind before howsoever he is great.

Respecting others means not  to compromise with self

Embrace humility but shun the conceit.

Some clarity is missed perhaps in previous lines 

both are the equally good virtues but need wise use.

Support each other and respect self & also others,

And never let self to stage of negligence & pity.

Continuity of thought and efforts for the goal,  

Checking availability of required resources at hand.

Clarity of thought & appropriateness of action

Use of optimum energy to bring out the best.

Some lore is required to sound as a flute

Stanzas to be fine and should seem right.

Hymning of its own the great notes,

And is amused in self to the morning lore.

Poetic heart and wisdom’s pen

Bring semblance of both sensitivity and facts’ den.

Realistic approach and high order of positive passions

Bring all solace and highest creativity

Educate both body & mind and remove all lethargy.   

Learning of self and mastery on it

Leave all dead stuff and accompany the truth.

Pipe the inner clarinet and sound the best tunes

Have all musical apparatus and play the cool.

Wording is difficult but will find some way

Poetry is simple may be not in perfect rhythm.

Words connections are there for some understanding

And meaning to the separate ones to enliven.

Needing Maa Saraswati’s blessings so as to write

Fill zeal in the mind to move from the status quo.

Always make pen & paper as friend & guide

And let me roam in all directions far wide.

Strifes are there so are the freedoms

Cuffs are there so are the keys to unlock.

Sickness & illnesses are there to grieve a lot

But are the cures also to relieve the patients.

So never be afraid of life’s wavering,

Will only make conversant of all possible revealing.

Will make more apt to face the diverse scenarios

and will not need sympathies of the crudes.

O my mind & guide, take help of the super guide,

and enlighten self for glorious life of understanding.

                                                                                                                       

Thanks.

 Pawan Kumar,
8th June'2014 Time 2 P.M.

( From My Dairy 27.08.2013 Time 7:50 A.M.)