Catching Time from Slipping

Catching Time from Slipping

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In life, time is a very important and precious commodity. But it always seems to be slipping from hand. There remain many targets, works and wishes unfinished and as it is without being fully accomplished for want of real action. Problem is not that we don't want to take them but there come many factors in the way hindering to bring positive results. We are master of time only when are able to catch it, use in a productive way extracting as maximum as possible from it so as to make our lives some worth. Many a times, there is a great frustration that we aren't living life in accordance of its requirements. The world is moving so fast that we aren't even able to have its glimpse. It would have been better if we are part of the process but the situation is so pathetic that we are simply standing yawning lazily having no real knowledge of neither of us nor of world. Is this can be said as real, ideal life? No, this is not life at all because without consciousness, life is non-existent, it is dead. Yes, curiosity like Ulysses can only make us some men of knowledge. Creativity like of Mahatma Gandhi, Dr. Ambedkar, Baba Amte, Martin Luther King, Anna Hazare, Nelson Mandela etc. can make us some worth. Our genius should be not-stopping.

As Lala Hardayal has asked to always continue in the path of knowledge. The way he quotes great authors and scholars of the world, certainly depicts his genius. He was a great revolutionary also who fought for independence of India against British in early 20^th Century. He gives several advices in his book, of which Hindi translation I read, which men can follow so as to certainly live a life of a full, ideal & harmonious man. So there is a need to modify our character, thoughts and perceptions for others as well us for real benefit of the world. In his famous book ‘I am OK, You are Ok’, Thomas Harris tells the purpose of the book to create the conditions, feelings in the people for greater utility and also the best possible life. So what I write anything means to truly define my views regarding me. I want to catch moments through writing daily diary but due to laziness or being involved in other things, this very important aspect of life remains unfulfilled. But life is not stopped. I have passed 32 years of my life. I was married six years ago and have a five years old daughter Saumya. She is a charming, sweet baby going to Prep class at Manav Sthali School, South Extn. She is sleeping besides me. She is very intelligent and is picking up things as best as possible. My whole wishes are on her and with Usha are trying the best to extract and give best to her.

Since last about one month, I haven't written anything in diary although life has flown through that. What is even worse that I am not even writing the important aspects of my life at least on weekly or fortnightly basis. Having no records of them is a permanent loss because everything can’t be left to memory and to wait for the time when I will have ample time to write the details of everyday of the past time. Virtually this is impossible because we cannot remain in the same condition all the time. We are changing fast every moment, every day. So try to put things in records whenever find time. That shall be only permanent asset of the life. Samuel Johnson had a habit to keep paper slips and pencil in his coat all the times and even while riding horse if some idea, new word eased to come to his mind, he would immediately scribble that on slips for keeping record  and later on editing. Lala Hardayal also suggests keeping a good diary of life. All great men of world had habit to kept daily diary of their life. I should also try to be honest to my life to give it the best. By collecting the best things into diary’s papers, I can expect to be enriched man after sometime.

Pawan Kumar,

31^st August, 2014 Time 17:08

(From my diary dated 8^th July’1998 Time 1:05 AM)

Consciousness and Expressed Behaviour

Consciousness and Expressed Behaviour

For last many days I was strongly thinking to express me in diary. I don’t claim to be a good writer and find self much below the great ones. Even then trying and expressing self in the words is certainly a better proposition than to remain an idle one. Writing is only one way of expression from many. In our daily discourses whether in home, travel, offices, general public interactions or elsewhere, we always express through our gestures, language, etiquettes, facial expressions, tone of speech, our moods, our intelligence or ideology or so. We like sun or any radiant body always emit something whether we want or not. It may be good or bad, beneficial or harmful, soothing or hurting or so. We go on expressing always, all the times. Spoken language is only one mean of expression. Even if we don’t know others’ languages, we judge them by their general demeanor expressed through body-movements. Always there is conscious or unconscious expression - whether we know or not, or whether we like or not. Man is a social being and whenever we are out, expressed impression start erupting from us.

The expressed behavior is the outward version of what is going inside. We bring out what we have and cannot give more. Our sudden outbursts at times are also spirits of repressed feelings having found appropriate opportunity to express. Even our bad deeds, or socially forbidden acts, though we know very well that they are not good, are also the result of accumulations from past long. Nothing happens all of sudden. We are certainly shaped by internal thoughts, external forces and our reactions to them. So life is like that only - it runs whether we want or not.

But what is correct method of living or expression. I had read a book ‘How to have a Beautiful Mind’ by Eduard de Bono which emphasizes to think on a topic in a number of ways. Our mind should not only be straight but multi-directional & multi-dimensional. We should bring more realms or facets to an object or problem by a creative mind and then try to reach the best one. Innovation and creativity are such ways which lead us to use our brain's maximum. Staleness is death so to remain alive, one has to be always consciously involved in thing or matter. This is also important where we want to concentrate. On the useful points, it is productive or efficient way of living life.  But there are many good or worth attention points which should draw our attention and motivate us to focus on them.

How much life do we have - only the living years? In the main question, some are really great because they try to imbibe in selves and bring a lot from inside.  Basically everything is in our inside - our fears, strengths, morals, ethics, crudity, savageness, godliness, rudeness or sweetness, pleasing or soothing attributes. We smile only when we want or when we are happy from inside or feel pleasure in that very discourse, idea or attribute we lie with. We cannot be forced by any one. We can keep mum; repress selves for a certain period or even for centuries. If it becomes habit to lose self confidence, fear of outside over power us. But in that situation also, whether our behavior repressed or not, fully coming out or not, we are always hiding something to outside what actually resides in us. Many a times even if we don’t express those repressed feeling and try to be good at face, but from inside we know that we are only acting and not behaving. But that is not natural expression but forced, well thought inside. Ideally our intellect, speech and action i.e. Mansa, Vachsa, karmana should be one.  Then there will not be any dilemma and action will be only what we think correct. 

But our thinking is also very limited and that too is shaped by many external forces. People always don’t take us seriously. Everybody is engrossed in self and acts in his own way but when in conscious state he is cautious in his expression. Our thinking is shaped by our environment, education, childhood experiences; own self-confidence, faith, religious teachings, general environment of society repressive or motivating, family background, economic status, trade or profession one is in or so. But how can be our thinking improved upon despite these factors. I think that only the education can bring positive changes. Besides, self-mediation and own Do’s or don’ts can also lead to some solace. Psychologists deal such problems and try to explain ways by which behavior can be modified to suit the present or better coming life by having known the past. I am not a psychologist but have read a few popular books e.g. ‘Road Less Travelled’ by Scot M Peck or ‘The Power of Your Sub-Conscious Mind’ by Dr. Joseph Murphy, and so on.

 

I am changing continuously, losing a little self every moment. I know people and their going from the world leaving living ones mute spectators. My general environment is not improving much and I am not much helping or fulfilling social obligations. I need some conscious feelings for my surroundings and contribute to some amelioration. Almost half the life is already passed and nothing great done in these years. Though there are some expressed traces of success but a lot is yet to be done. I had a lot of friends but I seldom make call to them. They call on phones occasionally but not much continuance. I have never told or not successful in convincing poor relatives, old friends, brethren how to improve their financial or intellectual status.  So the ground is flat and any design can be fitted in but I don’t have ingenuity, courage to pick up a pencil, colours and start drawing.

So let us try to consciously involve in our worthy affairs.

Pawan Kumar,
16^th August’2014 Time 13:48 P.M.
(From My Dairy dated 17.07.2011 Time 09:18 AM)

Mind's Ramblings & Cravings

Mind's Ramblings & Cravings

Deep into my mind, I crave for variety

Life is of many aspects, so aspire curiosity.

Necessity is to go for multi-dimensional,

And broadening scope with many faceted.

Mind craves not only the single realm,

But ever diverse & broad-visional.

Broaden horizon of mind to a large extent

See many aspects of even the little issue.

Colors it is having of many shades

Layers it keeps hidden beneath top skin.

Don’t rely on the apparent look only

Try to go into depth to know true history.

Don’t only be the consummator of day

But venture into details to know truth.

Don’t let the mind to get easily satisfied

Open its reins to move multi-directional.

Try to uncover the covered stuff

And gain some knowledge of true nature.

Don’t give up even if you understand less,

Have strong urge to learn the truth.

Things seem very simple though are not so

And take many ways to reach present status.

Enter into world of enlightened ones,

And experience the ecstasy of learning.

Path in beginning may be slightly tough

But on becoming habit, turns into working mode.

Be explorer of things, time, history and technologies

Why to satiate when there is so much to learn?

For you billions of concepts, issues are untouched

But world is more understandable than ever before.

May not be a good writer and without home work,

Even then try to forth views into your own words.

Everybody cannot be a Byron or Tennyson

But none stops to sketch with your paper & pen.

Write & write even for the sake of repetition

But try honestly to sketch the correct stuff.

Erudite you become with knowledge & experience

So hesitate not to inscribe in any stage you are in.

Life is a process and you are not same in all times

But each aspect has its own state & charm.

So go on expressing wherever you exist

Feats bring treasures which one not thinks often.

Pen is a self-writer & beholder is only medium

And his efforts & initiatives bear the new creations.

So always be ready with your stuff & tools,

May be it is not much acceptable to others.

So far I wrote for self, and not much for others

But that self-journey is also very enchanting.

Living own life knowing its strengths & weaknesses

And strong urge to win over the difficulties.

Give up lethargies physical-mental & brood infinity

Experience eternity & embrace the great ones.

Many are successful in this writing business,

And some really enter into class of self-actualized.

Be not an arm-chair intellectual but strive for a cause

Do some good and make life easy for at least few ones.

Have a feeling of universal bond,

Keep touch with everything and that is yours.

Try to know unknown from the known sources,

But bother not others first and try to find own path.

Motivate others also to relish path, if they can

As that will awaken from slumber of dependence.

So much around, and resources are enormous

Only zeal is required to make them yours’ own.

You will be more enlightened being then

And probably gain name, fame & fortune precious.

Strongly crave great, and richness is hidden in self

Relish the best of world and taste their essence.

Your heart and mind are the greatest assets

So take care of them better than anything else.

Greatness is not sudden but is a process

Just start and results will follow automatically.

Keep iron hot to avail the awaiting opportunities,

And align self for higher pursuits of the life.

What shade you want to give yourself,

What shape is wanted for the backward ones?

What good you can bring to them

What training is needed to take world’s challenges?

Create training infrastructure to fill up the development gap

Intend to come out of poor, menial, economic & social status.

Do not easily satiate with the limited success

And aspire high glories & efforts to pursue them.

Lives change not much by mere thinking & preaching

Real help is needed for the positive transformations.

Wish to see smiles on the saddened faces,

And do something for their status change.

Glow minds by doing away their darkness

Show way to do away the hardships.

Life is to win over the difficulties,

Show them it can be done, and is possible.

Start mechanisms to help the people

For realizing potentials and are self-dependency.

Mostly it is fight with self-created limitations,

So allow no self-mercy & also on others.

Live as a man as lady in the Statue of Liberty,

Enlightened self to fully know a person’s rights.

Have zeal to positively interact with others

And leave best impressions on known things.

Admittedly world has adversities & conspiracies,

But they cannot demean the body’s strong will.

We shall overcome, and we do believe

And will not stop at little hardships.

Why one should shy away from struggles

They will only strengthen and polish the lives.

There are no reasons to weep on the limitations

Pray for courage to overcome any dreaded stuffs.

Don’t give up but look ahead and more ahead,

Look to the best ones, and how they accomplished.

Admittedly one has individuality & emulation is not easy

But that doesn’t stop you to shine in own way.

Big challenge is to make others your own,

Speak sweetly and respect their feelings.

Make them believe you truly desire their good,

And initiate positive as people are generally status quoits.

Few pursue real changes though many simply want so,

Many even don’t know life beyond the immediate present.

So difficulty is how to align people for the hard work

And see life’s greatness, far grander than present.

Personal change is difficult but can succeed if pursued

But social changes require real courage and pains.

Success is imminent in the personal case

But it is hard task to awaken the masses.

It is not the awakening for a day or two

But is to make it a habit permanent.

It is not one or two, but the whole masses

Who always change faces, and need persistent efforts.

Changes are effective only when strong & continuous

Their purpose is specific suiting to people’s needs.

But often people don’t know their ignorance

So require constant enlightenment & training.

But knowing this entire one, one has a pious duty

To do something positive for the people.

Helping to realize that they can live like a man

And can pursue self-pursuits dear to them.

There is some progress but still more is to done

That they produce many souls having ability to inspire.

Need is to produce many enlightened minds,

And many good engineers, doctors & other professionals.

That they become good orators, writers & industrialists

And good politicians, administrators, thinkers & philosophers.

That they become psychiatrists, poets, and story-men

And craftsmen, artists, painters, actors, sculptors & architects.

That they become astronomers, scientists, educators and chemists,

And importantly the scientifically tempered human beings.

They come out of their ignorance, ill habits & superstitions

and be strong enough to see the world face to face.

They become duty-bound, disciplined citizens,

And contributors to society, not just the dependents.

They should be comfortable in their economic status,

And enjoy the life’s conveniences as others.

They should realize that world has enough for them,

That they have strengths to come up of their own.

That they deserve to avail opportunities available

And are well prepared to benefit them.

They become good humans with concern for others

And know the world & respect different cultures.

They don’t regard others as enemies,

But as the only mortals working in own way.

They should know that it is all education & training,

And will enable to take world’s challenges.

They should come out of their unskilled stage,

And come into the category of skilled ones.

They need to make them apt to take challenges

And prepared to help the world at cross-roads.

They should be able to do away own prejudices

And be strong enough to ignore others’ such faults.

They must know only strong ones can forgive

They should forget their only not-very glorious past.

But their legacies they must be proud of

And realize in hearts of being not-second to none.

Loss & gain are the faces of same coin

Leave the unnecessary stuff, and cherish the essence.

Realize present stuff, and plan for improvements

And be ready for the life’s best experiences.

So there is nothing to despair of

World has progressed a lot for sake of good.

Time is opportune, and pick up world’s nerve

Change self and course of history as well.

Questions are big but solutions are simple

Only strong urge and honesty can pursue big dreams.

Then almighty is with you to make successful

And you will definitely overcome, I do believe.

Pawan Kumar,

1^st July’2014 Time 23:26 Mid-night

( From my Dairy 31^st March’2013 Time 21:26 night)

Challenges To Self

Challenges To Self

I want to dream dreams of some progress

Present time just seems relaxed & a bit stagnant.

Providence has desired me to be ready for coming challenges

But alas I am not doing much to further existing stuff.

Technically so much knowledge is spread my nearby

But not much done with that to improvise concepts.

There is always a change in the great scheme of things

But adaptation is the only one way for survival.

I cannot closet self in den and expect great modifications too

Certainly need to be bold and come out of comfort zone.

Meet people who can help on time & as per requirements

And explain needs to help, they can render.

Design life and not loose what can become a reality

But move out, establish relations, bring smiles and be humble.

Be some contributor and not just the spectator of events

Enjoyment is there in others’ acts, but real mirth is own struggles.

Express self, leave fears and believe that you can do

But also do not disturb others without any good cause.

There are many good souls and are in a position to help

As self not good in many fields, so complementary is requirement.

So do not hesitate to accept own limitations & limited sphere

But with the giants’ help, broaden self’s horizon.

So find the ones needed in the present moments,

And design future clearly seeing into the things.

Some changes are imminent in the coming time

So be prepared for taking all those challenges.

In great designs of events, always expect some changes

There are always factors which all cannot be brooded now.

They will erupt sudden without any anticipation

And will give some turns or tend to delay designs.

But these are temporary only & will just pass own way

Then there will be regularity of those normal chores.

So you can design well in present good civilizations

But always be ready to meet out the contingencies.

Truly in the world around, there are great turbulence & havocs

Million lives are affected daily without their personal faults.

Challenges to authorities & dare devils don't accept status quo

And contrive their designs even to try the mightiest.

Man is never satisfied with present and tries to revolt

Pacifism is there in riches, knights or philosophers.

Or in the common public not finding self strengthened

But some elements then always are ill or good designing.

Whether right or wrong, main issue is unanticipated change

But even mighty begin fleeing after some resistance.

Sometimes they are able to crush those revolts

But it is not always easy to be successful.

Truly there are several great volcanoes & also little turbulence

And the petty changes will certainly come in the ways.

Be ready to come crowned in ordinary courses of world

And establish strongly that you can handle & handle.

You can keep your existence in all such changes

Provided you equip self with competencies & talents.

World at last remembers the really able persons

And gives its due respect to the pure souls.

Many characters, faces, styles and of varied natures

See their dispositions and how they take their lives?

People judge them in own ways, seeing their sincerity

And many a times, their judgment is correct also.

May be you don’t conform to established rules & expectations

Challenge them with intellect and question their relevance.

May be that not soothing to everyone in position

And they keep their interests high in mind & lives.

So greed is there of the assets and positions we occupy

And even a small threat seems to dwindle our positions.

So we become scary and try curbing those revulsions

And do not easily loose positions gained over the time.

But time is a great wheel and everything is churned into

We are also minuscule in great designs of providence.

He has his own design in greater scheme of things

And the ordinary ones remain mute spectators.

Truly the stronger ones lead the causes to happen

And hold powers to influence fates of many.

May be that we realize or not

But are constantly influenced by those mighty winds.

Whether politics, commerce, administration or knowledge to disseminate

We generally work imminently what comes to the fore.

We may be unsatisfied a little, and curse our own fates

But must realize them as forces working from behind.

Storms come and go and many times devastate completely

And tend to wipe out of civilizations, great epithet of knowledge gathered.

This is perhaps the Shiva’s Tandav and the black hole we call

Everything is taken into great vacuum & lost for permanently.

Our known history has seen big changes that changed the courses

They completely changed lives of many, may be for good or bad.

Concepts are daily changing, many a times just repetitions of past

And a great cycle always turns, showing different columns to world.

Man’s turmoil & tribulations are far less than nature’s big design

And many times man is just spectator not equipped to cope.

May be he is trying to understand each & every cause

But forces are great, which definitely world to face.

Our internal world is a small model of that greater one

We are also affected in same way as is a big brother.

Internally we are alike working in a pattern

But some of us are more equipped & trying to excel.

Man has progressed a lot though trials & undefeated spirit

He has taken on nature and tried to control its forces.

It is not that forces have become weakened

But preparations have adjusted him to face those forces.

His forewarning, reaction time & anticipation of forces to come

Contriving in his things, making nest so as to sit safely.

Safety equipments are daring those evil forces

And all daily preparations are for sustenance only.

Designs should be safe, sturdy, handy, understandable & easy

Then there are efforts required to mould into action.

And are manufacturing enterprises to take that part

And some sellers to profit after advertising to public.

Basic thing is to avail all those stuffs of requirements

And it should be in people’s affordability & knowledge.

Truly everyone is not able to take those great challenges

But there are ones who do & help world in a great way.

It is the indomitable spirit which strengths the muscles

And always be in motion, may any difficulty be there.

We are not to stop, may be fall of stumbling

Falling is not important as long as have willed to rise.

We will fall again & again and then rise & rise also

This is the only way we learn walking of our own.

Yes in beginning some support is required

But as we gain expertise, start taking care of selves.

Life is a learning process & there're ways to be skilled

But solutions don’t come, you have to approach them.

Aspire greater things and join the mighty ones

Be in club of excellent and company will benefit.

So dream high & be not satisfied with apparent mortality

Leave all the pity over self and other ones.

Life is to rise every day after night’s sleep

And look to the mighty Sun helping great in its way.

Always be motivated & motivate others for positive results

Win & let win in the most professional way you can.

Knowledge of one’s arena is need in present world of skills

So prepare self for all great things likely to come soon.

Pawan Kumar,

15^th June, 2014 Time 1:33 Midnight

(From My dairy dated 11^th October’2013 Time 9:05 AM)