Lighthouses in the Mind

                                                                Lighthouses in the Mind

This piece is a quiet tracing of an inner journey—not toward achievement, but toward alignment. Written as a conversation with the self, it attempts to observe, unclutter, and refine the inner responses that shape a meaningful life. The tone is intimate yet aspirational, offering readers space to reflect on their subtle inner transitions.

Life is an amazing process taking us through innumerable realms & testing each side.
But with adaptive minds and consistent effort, there’s more than solace to find.

Life needs to be brooded upon—why things happen to us on this winding course.
We aren’t always equipped to stay steadfast in our acts or declarations.
We sway often in the winds, dance to whatever Providence sends our way.
Maybe we’re responsible for much around us—if not wholly, at least in part.

A sincere person must confront their issues & find the courage to move forward.
He must think broadly, involve himself where needed, and sort out what he can.
Solutions are nearby—people see their angles, and if met, they lend support.
Yet egos bruise in some, and when they do, a balm of grace is needed.

I see roughness scattered through daily life; perhaps it is just like that, too smooth.
It’s like walking barefoot on thorn beds, or rocky, slippery hills alone.
Somewhere it’s marshy, foul, and breath grows heavy from our weaknesses.
Many outsiders seem to seek fights—as if they feed on it, even delight.

From certain characters, I expect their oddness, unmoved by words or counsel.
Their manner causes pain—mental at least, and they find constant reasons to complain.
I see a kind of greed embedded there, little respect for others’ good work.
Still, despite discomfort, duty calls—and for that sake, I must accomplish.

I observe much shaking in the minds of our soft-looking fellow beings.
They carry matters deep in their hearts, bear grudges, & delay under trivial pretexts.
They don’t act despite requests, and wait even when urgency rings the bell.
Emotion alone does little—one must act with purpose, and move for a cause.

My own work is inefficient too, as I wake only when it falls on me.
Yes, the demands are many, & I must tread carefully to balance them all.
I must avoid traps of any sort and fix things rightly, without delay.
Times test us, but courage smoothens even the hardest conduct of life.

I do not complain—just look for ways out of the jargon all around.
Yet never must one fall into wrong for the lure of momentary gain.
When the work is right, mishandlings reduce, and a little gain holds meaning.
Still, no room for complacency—life does care how well things are carried out.

We must learn the 'Art of Living'—daily challenges shall always pass our way.
So train body & mind enough to manage what life brings to the door.
The real issue is, we often aren’t ready to face what comes to us.
Yet training ensures readiness, and that’s what equips us to handle & win.

Life surprises often—accidents strike, as in Kerala, where landslides took 500 lives.
In Uttarakhand and Himachal, floods swept homes, & rains destroyed with full cruelty.
Earthquakes arrive—homes turn to rubble, lives vanish in seconds under falling stone.
Wars rage between nations—leaders play, and citizens end up paying the price.

Due to student unrest, Bangladesh lost many lives, and PM Sheikh Hasina fled from country.
She ruled long, for nearly two decades, bringing the economy to high standards.
But things went wrong—reserving 60% jobs for a few sparked unrest, turning violent.
People rose—agitations surged—and the government broke down in a single breath.

Each day brings upheavals; lives suffer; the reasons are scattered & manyfold.
We attempt to design life with care, but still, uncertainty looms in our face.
The key is to work like water—never wrong, image quietly rising in depth.
No need to fight always—know your strength, your space, and come out clean.

One must shape strategy with care, and not run after things that merely glitter.
Sometimes it takes bold words, but grace & excellence must walk alongside them.
I, too, am organic, a breathing being, trying to survive with dignity intact.
Yet I stay positive, keeping attitude clean, and seek help where needed to stay safe.

{In a world of surfaces, this is a quiet rebellion—to return to the depths & live from there.}

 

Pawan Kumar,

27^th July, 2025, Sunday, 11:40 PM, Brahmpur (Odisha)

[From my diary, 7^th August’2024, Wednesday, 9.44 A.M., Brahmpur (Odisha)]

 

The Author, Pawan Kumar, is a senior civil engineer, philosophical thinker, and deeply reflective writer. With over three decades of professional experience & an equal span of introspective journaling & literary work, he now blends engineering precision with poetic insight. His writings are a tryst with the self—rooted in values, awakened by questions, and drawn toward the timeless. Through poetry & prose, he urges others not merely to live, but to live meaningfully.

To Rise Above and Beyond

                                                        To Rise Above and Beyond

This reflection was written in a quiet morning hour, not as a performance, but as an inward declaration. It is a personal yet universal list of aspirations: a meditative inventory of how one might live with dignity, clarity, and enduring value. Each line arises from the author’s lived experiences, observations, and inner compass, shaped by decades of service, thought, and daily striving. It is not meant to instruct others, but to offer a mirror to anyone seeking a higher plane of thought, conduct, and contribution. These words are not hurried resolutions — they are lifelong directions, drawn from stillness, meant to stay.

I aspire to raise my level as a person — to continuously consider how to improve the quality of my work, how to make it readable for all — a public property, or at least to those learned ones who care for literature, refined words, or prudent reflection. Let the effort persist, push high, put the self to test, demand the sky, motivate those aligned, stretch vision far ahead, enhance the self and others’ limits, engage in higher dialogues, aim high with a global outlook, come out of dilemmas, keep clarity, direct superiors, engage in serious business, treat people with respect, communicate well, make best use of time, remain jovial, gauge the surrounding atmosphere, smoothen the way, clear problems, respect expectations, accommodate others’ needs, remain attentive to observations, sensitise attached ones, expedite resolutions, act proactively, stay clear of dirt, swim clean, build a good image, encourage steadfastness, cooperate, become a vehicle of progress, be a confiding person, aim for a serene world, take people along, orate well, carry superb character, rise above petty grades, live with respect, keep a clean image, facilitate progress, and leave the impression of coming right.

I aspire to avoid letting shallow selfies undermine good systems; instead, I aim to build beautiful & long-lasting structures. Keep morale high — for self and others, especially children — inspire them to aspire, remember the past, ensure greatness, rise above the ebbs, keep high thoughts, meditate superb, raise relationships, help people rise above pitiable conditions, usher in new possibilities, being an embodiment of goodness, aim for great creations, write with impact, publish books, and become a valuable name. Listen to others’ viewpoints, observe how the world behaves, how nations grow or fall behind, promote goodness, give reasons to smile, make the most of time, fill value into each moment, reduce inefficiency to nil, keep the body fit, learn many skills, master the best ones, produce works to be counted in the best books, keep a good library, design meaningful environments, green the ambience, uphold best habits, rest adequately, keep peace of mind, remain free from agitations, embrace sunshine, and practice solitude without tolerating mediocrity.

Let high idealism walk with practical effort. Secure a livelihood with dignity, behave well, carry lofty thoughts, scribble great, create marvels, raise institutions, build minds, erect on the ground, offer to the public, make hay while the sun shines, benefit from situations, grab opportunities without greed, love neighbours truly, raise the community’s name, help people meaningfully, pave the way for progress of those attached, lay superior educational foundations, grow in real assets, speak appropriately, listen more, raise gardens, spread scents, keep surroundings clean, own farms, grow organic, explore the world, learn languages, sit among great minds, connect with the superb, elevate relationships, meet higher-ups, sow better seeds, ensure quality, and eliminate tolerance for nonsense.

Bear others’ problems, let go of harshness, love deeply, accept differing viewpoints, embrace diversity fully, profess what is practical, live true professionalism, resolve dilemmas with clarity, maintain soothing relations, become a beacon, show the right path, work hard to yield results, widen the worldview, venture across domains, avoid disturbing others needlessly, intervene timely, take strong decisions, prove mettle, pull others out of inefficiency, clear confusion & fogs, practice best habits, travel across beautiful places, empathise with common lives, and prepare for the future — including managing assets wisely.

Be part of great efforts. Take on higher responsibilities. Learn to communicate effectively without confusion. Judge broadly for the common good, respecting fair rules. Create a niche for the self, stay above suspicion, offer chances for others to grow, witness beauty in the world, and become the right fit for the best things. Venture in all vivid directions and become, in some meaningful way, a thing of enduring use.

 

Pawan Kumar,

16^th July, 2025, 9:47 A.M., Berahmpur (Odisha)

[From my diary, 22^nd October 2024, Tuesday, 8:26 AM, Berhampur (Odisha)]

 

To Grow Is to Roam and Return

To Grow Is to Roam and Return

This reflective poem explores the relationship between solitude & exploration — between the quiet of thought & the stimulation of the world. It argues that true creativity emerges not from choosing one over the other, but from moving between the two.

Drawing from everyday observations, philosophical musings, and lived experience, it weaves a journey from local roots to global awareness, and back into personal expression. Through its rhythmic structure, the piece emphasizes that growth is conscious, balance is essential, and life is both a mirror and a window.

It invites the reader to ask: Am I becoming, or merely repeating? To Grow Is to Roam and Return reminds us that every outward step should deepen the inward voice.

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When is a person most creative — while travelling far or sitting still?
Both paths shape us deeply, and each gives something real.

Our outings add freshness — we see and hear the world anew.
We step beyond our mental walls into a sky of richer hue.
We sense the vastness, far beyond what quiet minds conceive.
Old beliefs dissolve like clouds — our worldview starts to breathe.

In life, we build mindsets, often fixed in a silent stone.
Unless we're stirred or challenged, we retreat and sit alone.
Yes, we need our silence — a space for peace and breath,
But solitude must still belong to something larger than self.

We connect through daily duties, errands, voices & streets.
In passing conversations, we find where inner and outer meet.
Each one may seem small alone, but together they rise in mass.
We merge and then emerge, each time with something to grasp.

The question of who's right is not one we can hold.
Truth slips with time — even wise words grow old.
We build ideas and theories we think might be true,
But every “fact” is shaped by time’s ever-changing hue.

We travel to new places, where cultures live and breathe,
Where tongues are strange, and customs wear different wreaths.
Gods are made, meals differ, beliefs are shaped by land —
Some are taught not to ask, only to understand.

Suppose we live in Kangra’s hills, where mountains hush the day.
Our world is shaped by elders, and we walk a narrow way.
We learn what's given, rarely asked to stretch or doubt,
So thoughts remain within, and seldom travel out.

To grow beyond such borders, we must step through the door.
‘Small is beautiful’ holds true, but when tied to something more.
Few are lucky, bold, or stirred enough to leave their comfort zone,
To fling themselves into the wide, uncertain, ever-growing unknown.

Travel still shows fragments — we never grasp the whole.
But even one new broad vision can reshape the soul.
Touching something foreign doesn’t make it ours alone,
But even passing moments plant seeds we might own.

We should see museums, walk in fairs, breathe parks & art.
Watch foreign lands in films, see how other people start.
Some have risen high through learning, love, and care —
They build a world that nurtures all with dignity and air.

Harsher lands exist, and yet many bloom with grace.
They’ve turned nature to wonder, shaped with time & place.
By seeing such, we better know the space where we reside,
And how others strive with dreams that burn inside.

We come from loving parents, yet with limited means & sight.
So we must reach beyond them, toward broader beams of light.
We build this through our schools, our play, our shared events,
Through tours, exchanges, and programs of deeper intent.

Competitions teach us to rise, to strive from local to wide.
They ask us to prepare, to measure, to rise with pride.
We can't be content while the world moves on its way —
To know our capacity, we must push into the fray.

Yes, some will pull us down with envy, noise, or fear.
But we must break the inertia — apply that needed gear.
Newton’s first law still holds: no move without a shove.
We must push with books & effort, with questions & with love.

The wise remind us gently — we know very little, still.
But through each opened window, we find a deeper will.
Remaining open helps us learn just where we stand,
And how much more we must do with mind and hand.

This world is uneven — some rise while others fall.
Those behind must toil harder to level what we call
A fair & earned respect — through habits sharp & strong,
And faith in work and purpose to carry them along.

As I read about cultures, sciences, literature, & thought,
I find myself expanding, drawn into a deeper knot.
The world, in bits & pieces, enters through the mind,
And urges me to shift, to leave no growth behind.

The world reshapes my silence — its sights, talks & light.
Though I roam wide, I must return to rest and write.
My mind replays the images, the moments, and the sound —
It weighs, discards, or welcomes all that the day has found.

When I'm alone, and still, and the mind is moved to speak,
I draw what’s stored within, what thought and feeling seek.
Some may sing or draw instead — there's no one right way,
But words remain, and speak again, long after memory’s day.

My meditations form from what the world has shown.
They build within, give judgment, roots to what was grown.
We’re always in formation — more input keeps us bright.
Our outings are those sacred sparks that help us find our light.

Yet balance must be kept — experience must become art.
We must digest what’s gathered and discard the waste.
We cannot only take, but also must use what we consume.
For life is a conscious learning — its flower, thought in bloom.

 

Pawan Kumar,

27^th June, 2025, Friday, Time 8:34 A.M., Berhampur (Odisha)

(From my diary, 11th October 2020, Sunday, 4:07 PM, New Delhi)