A Note to Steady Myself

A Note to Steady Myself

This piece is a record of self-counselling written during mental & professional strain. It does not aim to resolve problems, but to regulate energy, judgment, and conduct. The writing functions as a pause—a way to examine reactions, limit excess engagement, and restore balance while remaining responsible. It is not meant as instruction, but as a private calibration made public only because the struggles it reflects are shared by many. The intent is steadiness, not perfection; clarity, not closure.

 

Everything takes its time; even the mind needs time to heal.
Days feel cumbersome & draining; discussions often do not soothe.

One tries to remain calm, yet situations provoke awkward, unavoidable involvement.
Things meant to sail smoothly become unnecessarily uneasy and draining.
One struggles and spends precious energy on better & productive causes.
Thus, outcomes suffer, targets stagnate, and frustration slowly settles in.

There is much to handle; helping hands exist, yet difficulty persists.
When matters spread wide, control weakens, and one may easily stray.
Daily damages occur if alertness drops; capable support feels limited.
Self-interest operates too; many try to escape duties as cheaply as possible.

I realise issues deserve limited time; otherwise, unwanted troubles erupt.
Discussions must stay specific; good solutions slip when attention scatters.
We may have time to sit; others may not share that liberty.
We think we control everything, yet outcomes rest in others’ hands.

One must respect seniors in age, knowledge, and lived experience.
Avoid circumstances that create discomfort for oneself and others.
Time teaches slowly; nobody becomes mature or masterful suddenly.
Experience & daily interaction give footing, though progress feels gradual.

With little authority, one begins believing oneself greater than reality.
That happens; still, one must judge where one truly stands.
Positions are slippery; firm grounding prevents unnecessary rise & fall.
Enthusiasm helps, yet dual authorities must be consciously minimised.

The mind works vividly; the body often struggles to match that pace.
Criticising others comes easily; self-conduct avoids equal scrutiny.
One must grasp life’s subtle game plans and move steadily through them.
Checking oneself repeatedly prevents frequent inward slipping.

Awkward situations burden the body; unexplained headaches quietly begin.
Many realms deserve respect, yet one must protect energies.
Protection means strengthening oneself to face the coming challenges.
Pauses are necessary, too, and destiny unfolds tests in many forms.

Do we design daily affairs, or do they simply fall upon us?
The world notices effort when responsibility is handled sincerely.
Some situations sting deeply and shake one from within.
A wise person chooses responses; character quietly lifts him upward.

One should feel pride in work and speak when required.
This is not silent acceptance, but an effort to correct wrongs.
A questioning spirit is healthy; answers need patience and clarity.
Answers emerge as reactions shaped by proper understanding.

I tend to conserve energy and do meaningful work sincerely.
Yet assistance from those around should never be ignored.
One must not hesitate to ask for help when a genuine need arises.
Some will come forward, and the world is not entirely harsh.

One should challenge oneself daily, yet release inner strain gently.
Each day forms a chapter; therefore, live it with attentive effort.
Like leaves nourished by earth, growth needs quiet sustenance.
Life continues; each moment deserves a worthy passage.

I should remain democratic, respecting opinions that differ from mine.
Yet decisions must be timely; life rarely grants repeated chances.
Respect should not disturb one’s rightful growth and direction.
Unwanted hindrances drain energy; time comes only in fragments.

O inner self, remain placid and capable of chosen goals.
Let part of my energy serve the larger survival of this world.

 

Pawan Kumar,

24^th February 2026, Tuesday, 12.34 AM (Midnight)

(From my Mahendergarh diary, 5th October 2018, Friday, 8.56 A.M.