Consciousness and Expressed Behaviour

Consciousness and Expressed Behaviour

For last many days I was strongly thinking to express me in diary. I don’t claim to be a good writer and find self much below the great ones. Even then trying and expressing self in the words is certainly a better proposition than to remain an idle one. Writing is only one way of expression from many. In our daily discourses whether in home, travel, offices, general public interactions or elsewhere, we always express through our gestures, language, etiquettes, facial expressions, tone of speech, our moods, our intelligence or ideology or so. We like sun or any radiant body always emit something whether we want or not. It may be good or bad, beneficial or harmful, soothing or hurting or so. We go on expressing always, all the times. Spoken language is only one mean of expression. Even if we don’t know others’ languages, we judge them by their general demeanor expressed through body-movements. Always there is conscious or unconscious expression - whether we know or not, or whether we like or not. Man is a social being and whenever we are out, expressed impression start erupting from us.

The expressed behavior is the outward version of what is going inside. We bring out what we have and cannot give more. Our sudden outbursts at times are also spirits of repressed feelings having found appropriate opportunity to express. Even our bad deeds, or socially forbidden acts, though we know very well that they are not good, are also the result of accumulations from past long. Nothing happens all of sudden. We are certainly shaped by internal thoughts, external forces and our reactions to them. So life is like that only - it runs whether we want or not.

But what is correct method of living or expression. I had read a book ‘How to have a Beautiful Mind’ by Eduard de Bono which emphasizes to think on a topic in a number of ways. Our mind should not only be straight but multi-directional & multi-dimensional. We should bring more realms or facets to an object or problem by a creative mind and then try to reach the best one. Innovation and creativity are such ways which lead us to use our brain's maximum. Staleness is death so to remain alive, one has to be always consciously involved in thing or matter. This is also important where we want to concentrate. On the useful points, it is productive or efficient way of living life.  But there are many good or worth attention points which should draw our attention and motivate us to focus on them.

How much life do we have - only the living years? In the main question, some are really great because they try to imbibe in selves and bring a lot from inside.  Basically everything is in our inside - our fears, strengths, morals, ethics, crudity, savageness, godliness, rudeness or sweetness, pleasing or soothing attributes. We smile only when we want or when we are happy from inside or feel pleasure in that very discourse, idea or attribute we lie with. We cannot be forced by any one. We can keep mum; repress selves for a certain period or even for centuries. If it becomes habit to lose self confidence, fear of outside over power us. But in that situation also, whether our behavior repressed or not, fully coming out or not, we are always hiding something to outside what actually resides in us. Many a times even if we don’t express those repressed feeling and try to be good at face, but from inside we know that we are only acting and not behaving. But that is not natural expression but forced, well thought inside. Ideally our intellect, speech and action i.e. Mansa, Vachsa, karmana should be one.  Then there will not be any dilemma and action will be only what we think correct. 

But our thinking is also very limited and that too is shaped by many external forces. People always don’t take us seriously. Everybody is engrossed in self and acts in his own way but when in conscious state he is cautious in his expression. Our thinking is shaped by our environment, education, childhood experiences; own self-confidence, faith, religious teachings, general environment of society repressive or motivating, family background, economic status, trade or profession one is in or so. But how can be our thinking improved upon despite these factors. I think that only the education can bring positive changes. Besides, self-mediation and own Do’s or don’ts can also lead to some solace. Psychologists deal such problems and try to explain ways by which behavior can be modified to suit the present or better coming life by having known the past. I am not a psychologist but have read a few popular books e.g. ‘Road Less Travelled’ by Scot M Peck or ‘The Power of Your Sub-Conscious Mind’ by Dr. Joseph Murphy, and so on.

 

I am changing continuously, losing a little self every moment. I know people and their going from the world leaving living ones mute spectators. My general environment is not improving much and I am not much helping or fulfilling social obligations. I need some conscious feelings for my surroundings and contribute to some amelioration. Almost half the life is already passed and nothing great done in these years. Though there are some expressed traces of success but a lot is yet to be done. I had a lot of friends but I seldom make call to them. They call on phones occasionally but not much continuance. I have never told or not successful in convincing poor relatives, old friends, brethren how to improve their financial or intellectual status.  So the ground is flat and any design can be fitted in but I don’t have ingenuity, courage to pick up a pencil, colours and start drawing.

So let us try to consciously involve in our worthy affairs.

Pawan Kumar,
16^th August’2014 Time 13:48 P.M.
(From My Dairy dated 17.07.2011 Time 09:18 AM)