Diving Deep

Diving Deep

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What can be the most precious thought that I can brood

How can I interact therein and churn the stuff lying?

There are billions of human minds present in the world 

Everyone has some uniqueness  in his constitution and patterns.

Impacts are unique depending upon the experiences one gets

Also how one interacts with scenarios needing his attention.

It is important how he chooses from the available environment

and how he chooses his priorities and acts upon them?

Is he not merely doodle-doing on one thing or other

Or really doing something to make life meaningful?

Billions of minds and billions of possibilities

As a single mind is capable of thinking much beyond.

There are many nerves and layers lying unturned

and just an activation is required to bring them in working mode.

We, or more particularly I do not know exactly how many possibilities I have

I have not thought much about them also.

Of what conscious material I am composed of

the mysteries are still unrevealed to me.

Life is going fast from hands and still not able to catch it up

What time will you be able to interact with it face to face?

How can I find those ways to make it of my own

and cherish the most enlightened moments it will bring?

That pleasantness and calm posture when I start practicing

and deeply mold myself  being these the befitting ones.

I want to totally be with me in all my moments

and the conscious mind is always supporting my thoughts.

I find numerous persons truly interacting with their selves

That is why few are able to churn their curd & take out the butter.

May be we do not realize the actual working going on in them

and we simply think that they are the only mortal ones.

But when they toil with their minds, the goal is to attain immortality

which is nothing but the realization or connection with the loftiest.

Our consciousness and internal balancing I think is that blissful state

and when everything is obvious and at ease rather than strife.

When the noblest ones speak of their minds

that becomes the way for the world to attain maturity.

That how of mind's working will depend on our diving

and the unquenching desire to attain that enlightened state.

The working of the truly intellectual ones is revealed in their words

Words they speak and words they write.

There is enormous material available in all around

and that is their legacy as present to the humanity.

But the question is not of shortage or scarcity of noble ideas

what about your own mind's hidden untold secrets.

Of which neither you nor others are aware

and why others will be interested if you yourself are not serious.

You can be a genius of your own provided you pay attention to self

Reveal yourself before you and reason your actions.

And then judge what actually is going on inside you

and whether that is really worth acting upon.

Though the whole universe is spread before me and theoretically I can take all

but I have my own limitations & fears not letting much ahead.

So we are able to grasp very little and that too of not much worth

and then clamor that we did not get much from here.

So the idea here is to enhance our competencies

that will increase our grasping power of more facets.

We can then build the assets of enormous value

and perhaps find some solace in accomplishments.

Great persons are there around you with whom you merely identify 

Sit in their feet and try to learn some of the greatest lessons of world.

Learn something of value and avoid the unneeded ones

Cultivate your mind with the noblest by doing away of all weeds.

Being your own light is the noblest teaching of Buddha

Meaning that you are to find your own way.

It does not restrict you to take external help when required

but you definitely should truly realize after working with self.

Sometimes I am quite unaware of some concept or topic

and then I need to put myself wholly into shelter of the teacher.

There is no ill to take help as & when required

but again you need to quantify your needs & correct source of fulfillment.

For me who is quite unaware & ignorant and doesn't see any light in self

What is the recourse available to get some rich stuff from here.

How can I make me worthy to sit in the class of truly learners

and where I find a good teacher who can bless me also?

But again there are some my limitations of thoughts of my ignorance

I do not even know where do I stand in the affairs of knowledge.

Realization will come much later then but some mirror is required

then who can bring that before me to take away all false impressions of self.

Again try to go to Buddha stating to be your own light

Can I say this as a teacher also for the self?

As little I understand others are only able to see very less of you

but you are always with yourself & perhaps interacting more.

Here I don't seek the opinions of others towards me

which can be many and also be some distracting.

I want a truly interesting enlightened observer

who very objectively and properly reveal me to me.

There can be many odd facts about you which you don't brood

or you have grown them with your ordinary company.

Vices have germinated inside and get very strong

and they will present their resistance if forcibly taken out.

So now comes to find some corrector to see your defects list

and the ways to rectify them needing correct materials and labour.

Or you can say the correct efforts to apply to ease out problems

and  cleanse you thoroughly & gradually treating  deep wounds.

I need both a true observer and teacher who is friendly to me

Not in my vices but a true well-wisher of me.

He should want my benefit to make me worthy

and who can talk to me with efforts & speak his mind well.

But something is required of me also to show my anxieties

to leave the bed and start exploring the self.

Reasoning of your every action & finding semblance

and judging your self with correct & just mind.

So try to be with yourself till you find some really worthy teacher

that will only be the occasioned though miracles don't come.

But you only intently desire & will always grow

and then the support of that almighty will always be with you.

Pawan Kumar,

22nd March'2014 Time 08:26 PM

New Delhi.

( From My Dairy dated 28th November'2013, 8:45 AM)